Being young and in love..

They loved each other. He knew. She didn’t know it, yet. As they kissed for the last time, she felt a strange kind of sadness and he didn’t know what would be the right thing to say. He locked his arms around her, trying to comfort her and they stood that way for a while. They finally decided to head home. She hurried ahead of him, afraid someone might spot them together. He probably sensed her fear and said, “Its Friday, the 13th, you know!” and then looked down and mumbled “What if, something bad happens..”. She turned her head to him and without thinking for a moment replied, “God loves me too much! This is the last time I am meeting you. He can’t be so cruel to me.”. Not a believer of the higher power but he looked at her with a reassuring smile. As they parted at the junction of the two diverging paths, he pulled her in, one last time. He said “Good luck!”. She tried her best to give him the smile that use to lighten up his day once upon a time and said “Thank you!”. They began to walk away from each other and she turned around to look back at him once more, she always did. As she watched him disappear round the corner, she walked home trying to analyse her feelings. She still didn’t understand it because she never thought it would end. What went wrong, you ask? He didn’t have the strength to fight for her. She couldn’t love him fearlessly.

Years later, when she thinks about it, she knows. But its too late. She wanted to stop him that day. She wanted to be with him that day She wanted to stay with him for the rest of her days. She wanted to hold onto that moment a little longer. She wishes she had told him then. Someday, maybe they will figure it out! Maybe, then they would have learnt their flaws and together could be each others’ strength to be happy and complete. 

The Head or The Heart..

Thoughts or feelings..

Thoughts are logical and processed responses to a situation whereas feelings are totally baseless. The mind wants to protect us and wants us to take the logical step. Our intuitions are feelings that just come, no one knows from where.
The mind suggests the carefully laid out plan that has been thought through and doesn’t have many loopholes. Feelings are just intuitions that we believe in and just go with it, which generally make for good stories.

I feel that, since no one knows what actually life holds for us, we should trust our intuitions and go with our feelings more. We can lie to the world and live with that, but we definitely cannot lie to ourselves and live with that. Being true to ourselves can give us so much happiness and can be so liberating that we begin to enjoy every moment we are living, feeling every emotion.
Life is about living and learning from our mistakes. It doesn’t come with an instruction guide. We are our best judge. We know what is right for us and what is not.

No one has life figured out and no one knows how their lives will turn out eventually so all we can do is sit back, be sincere, spend every waking moment doing things that we really like and not having any regrets.